The last few days have been such a roller coaster ride! Last I left you, we were about to wait out another two days before our daughter would be here. We managed to keep ourselves busy with some Christmas shopping, but it was definitely hard not to think about Shannon and our daughter.
On December 11th, we had the honor of taking Shannon to her final doctors appointment and to her pre admittance appointment at the hospital. I was thrilled because I had the best conversations with her and truly got to know her heart. After this day, we felt like we had known each other forever!! I knew what made her tick, when she started feeling anxious, and then how to calm her down. She had become part of our family!! We all felt really great and a huge peace about placement. That night we came home feeling great, yet we still had that little butterfly in our stomachs about her signing over.
On December 12th, We woke up at 5:00am to take Shannon to the hospital for her C-section! She was so nervous, as I would be in that situation and her anxiety was high. They took her back for preperation, without me, and she was back there forever. I felt the Lord's prompting to ask about her, because in my heart, I felt something wasn't right and she was upset. I went up and asked about her, they said she was in her room and a nurse was hugging her! (this is how connected God has made us..I knew she was upset) They moved quicker to get us back to her and the nurse that came to get us, told us that she had adopted her little boy and was sharing that with Shannon. She then told us that she prayed with Shannon too! This was amazing! God was showing us His presence in this every step of the way. We sat with a very nervous Shannon and then prayed over her. It was such a sweet moment. It was then time to head down to surgery. As they prepared her, I got into my scrubs and patiently waited to go in to comfort her through the c-section. Sitting next to her head, wiping the tears from her eyes and speaking God's peace over her was one of the best moments of this journey. Then, the doctor said, "Stand up. Look." Out came my daughters rear, legs, and her entire beautiful body! It was amazing! Incredible! I wanted so much to go right over to her, but God held my heart and I stayed with Shannon, continuing to comfort her. They brought baby girl over and I motioned for her to be taken to Shannon's head. It was beautiful!! Shannon spoke softley to her and gave her a kiss and then drifted off to sleep. I then got up and was able to hold her for the first time. Be still my heart! I was in love with this 9.8 pound bundle of baby joy! We followed up to the nursery for the doctor to weigh her, check her blood sugar, etc. Her blood sugar was low, but eventually rose to the level they wanted. She was/is perfect. Jon and I were able to watch the examination by the doctor and nurse, then her bath. I have to say, the doctors and nurses at this hospital were phenomenal and so understanding!! We were then notified that Shannon was back in her room, so we left to be with her. She was groggy, anxious, and ready to see baby girl. About 15 minutes into our visit, she was becoming agitated, so we requested for baby to come down and then Shannon asked us to leave and wanted the remainder of the day with baby and her kids by herself. We were heartbroken, but understood. Jon had not yet held her in his arms. We were crushed. We obliged, but snuck up to the nursery and the Doctor and nurse let us come back to at least give her kisses and say goodbye until the next day. We went back to the hotel, sad, but happy, and hopeful for our signing the next day.
On December 13th, we met caseworker at breakfast with the hope to go to the hospital to see our daughter and praying we would sign papers today. While at breakfast, Shannon asked us to wait. Sad, but we released it to the Lord. We went back up there a little after noon and the caseworker informed us that Shannon wanted to sign before her next pain med dose at 2pm. The caseworker quickly got a notary, and we grabbed lunch for Shannon. By the time we got back from getting lunch, Shannon had already signed all of the paperwork! We signed our part and a huge sigh of relief went through us hearts! We were ready to see our daughter, but Shannon's mental state was not well and was getting increasingly upset, so we had to leave. We went back to the hotel with caseworker, frustrated, angry, and confused. At about 7:00p, caseworker check with Shannon, again, and said we could come up and bring her kids their Christmas gifts. We were ecstatic!! It was amazing. The kids were thrilled and loved the items we got them! Jon finally got to hold his beautiful daughter!! We left tonight, our hearts full, our minds at peace, and ready to bring our daughter home!
We now wait for mom to be discharged from hospital. The doctor said not until Sunday, but Shannon hopes to leave tomorrow. We really hope she is discharged tomorrow, so we may bring baby girl back to our hotel and love on her all we want!! She will not be discharged until Shannon is...
I tell you what, this journey has been the most difficult journeys our hearts have been a part of. We are so grateful for the journey, because God has been chiseling away at our hearts, minds, and spirits bringing us closer to His heart than we have ever been.
I know you all want to see pictures!! I promise, pictures will come, but we want to have her in our arms and loving on her first. Stand by until Saturday or Sunday for pictures and another update!
Please continue to pray for the remainder of this journey... discharge of baby girl, ICPC paperwork, and getting home!
Love you all!!
Tiffany
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