So many things happening within our family and I just can't seem to keep up, but I know this question, "Why Adopt, again?" must weigh on many of your minds. This question stirred my heart for a long time before we moved forward with this third adoption. So I dug deeper to understand the meaning of why we are on this path to adopt, again.
Why adopt? Lord, I ask you this question, daily. Is this truly my heart, only, or is this your ultimate desire and heart for our family? Am I being selfish, when I have the most amazing husband and two precious boys? Perhaps, you may think I am not content with my family of boys. I struggled with this thought and still do at times, but God always brings me to His heart and reminds me. "This is my heart. Please stop questioning my desire for your family." So that being said, I feel God reminds me, "Tiffany, you are more content with your life and family than even you know, but my heart is not content until my will for your family is fulfilled. My will is to fill your home with my orphans. My desire is to fill your heart with so much love that you will always feel content no matter how many children I bring into your home. My heart is to fill your cup up and run it over with love and joy, so that your heart continues to pour out and spill over the joy and love you have for my orphans, your children."
WOW!! Such an amazing confirmation that I must move forward within His will and trust Him at all times. I still struggle, daily, with trusting, completely and whole-heartedly that the provision will be there, but God knows how, when, and where things will come from for all of our children!
Doesn't make sense? Then listen to this....
God set his will in motion for adoption in our family before I was even born. Through Jon's grandfather and my mother, God placed his heart of adoption on our family before Jon and I ever met. You see, Jon's grandfather grew up in an orphanage because his parents were unable to afford his care. My mother always had a heart for the orphans, so she became a foster mom and adopted our first son to remind us that every child is a gift, no matter the disability. Jon and I struggled with fertility for 8 years for reasons only God knew the answer to, which led us to adoption, but ultimately, God's hand was in our family since before we were both born!! God closed a door, so that we would walk through the door that He had for us. Adoption.
Am I pursuing pregnancy? You know you want to know.
I am not. My heart is no longer there. My heart is singing and shouting adoption to bring these children into a home. I will admit. Once in a blue moon I am wonder what it would be like to be pregnant, but those thoughts are fleeting when I see my children and the amazing gift they are to me. Someone once said to me, "there is something about giving birth to your "own" baby that truly makes you a mother." Although, this was hard to hear at the time, I know in my heart that this is not from the Lord, because pregnancy and birth of child doesn't make you a mother. God makes you a mother. I am a mother! I am a mother to my two beautiful boys and will be the mother of many more to come, because God has called me a mother to his orphans. If I could walk into an orphanage and take every child home, I would, but you know what stands in the way? Next topic....
If I could walk into an orphanage and take each child home with me, I would, but what stands in the way? Unfortunately, the cost that society has placed on these lives. As someone mentioned in a blog I read, "the price God paid for ransom of our life is much greater than the cost that we will pay to ransom the life of a child." It may cost us over $35,000 for each child we will bring into our home, but the price Jesus paid for me to live with Him is far greater. I will live for an eternity with my Father, because of the ransom He paid. Nicholas and Elijah will now be able to know the love that their Heavenly Father has for them, because we ransomed for their lives. Yes, it is costly in our material world, but is a forever gift that brings a child into Jesus' arms. There are more children that need to be swept into the arms of Jesus through adoption. Their ransom may seem high, but ask yourself where would you rather these children be? In the arms of our Father or in the snares of the world? Each donation to our adoption or for others adopting helps brings our children into the arms of Jesus, rescuing them from the snares of the enemy.
We are currently selling shirts for our adoption, but we are about to launch our 2nd fundraiser in hopes that we can rescue our next child sooner than we think we can. We know that God's timing and provision are perfect, so we continue to trust Him. Keep your eyes open for the next fundraiser that will be tax deductible if you want to help bring these children in the arm's of our Father or if your heart is swelling to help now, you may donate directly to paypal, knowing that 100% will be going to ransom a child's life!
Signing out to do laundry!
